The re-do of the re-do of the other re-do that was supposed to make up for the apologetic re-do of the very original re-do of the intial start.

I am feeling anxious, cautiously optimistic, but also wary towards my own strenth of will.

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There has been two large main points to my constant re-doing towards my own mental and physical health.

1.) Immediately giving up over slight inconvenience/becoming distracted by what I am working through.

2.) Not investing in my attempts with confidence, resources, and true heart felt dedication.

I depend on my anxiety to help me break down. I depend on my laziness and self disrespect to shoot down any opportunity to change. I depend on others to give me an emotional break from myself; ruining friendships. Leaving me alone to deal with life in pure solidarity.

I wonder if I have reached the point in my life to where I consistently feel enough is enough. Will I finally stand up against myself and pull a 360 ?

I have watched so many others be in order. They have their problems but their mind doesn't eat them alive.

First, I need to stop letting my negative routine run my life. I need stop allowing my insecurities prevent from taking the baby steps.

Good luck to everyone, myself included.

Anxious stressed,

Low and disposable

Happy, content, proud

Anxious excited and sad all at once

braindamaged, worthless, broke, a pathetic failure who is wasting every moment at this dead-end. i seek the strength, comfort, and guidance of the Lord. i have nowhere else to turn.

despaired

Wronged and frustrated

Exhausted

Sad and alone. Discarded and useless.