Today I'm feeling like I'm stranded on an island. I see ships out in the water but they don't head my way. I see creatures in the deep saying they'll help me get to safety but with experience, I know better than to trust something that can hurt me. I have tools to build a raft but it takes a long time to build the raft and the first few have sunk. Socially, I feel isolated and too different to fit in. I feel like the ones who are there are a bit toxic and I can't help but wonder if I'm toxic towards others. My goals in life are so far away and require's a lot of work. It's not that I don't want to work, I know I need to and I want to work but the thing is that it takes a lot of time and it feels like I don't have a lot of time. Please do me a favor, if you feel like commenting on this post, don't say time is only a concept or whatever because I don't want to hear that. I know about time and such but I don't want to spend the majority of my life going nowhere. I don't want to live a sad life and when I say 'sad', I mean not fulfilling my goals. I don't want to be alone but I feel like that is what's fated for my life. You can be alone and feel alone, and you can be around many people but still feel alone. Some days it feels like I'm only pretending to be happy and that I can't admit to myself or anyone that I'm not because I know it's my own fault for being this way and that my situation (if possible) will rarely change. I don't want to pretend anymore, I want to be happy, I want to feel accepted and that I've accomplished at least something big in my life. I feel a little like a selfish child instead of a proper adult who should have a balance of wanting to help and be there for others and to take care of myself and do what I want.
@MoriAnge1 for a long time too i felt like you. Until I chose to not so much focus on the future but on the now. Just do something that gets you happy daily and try not to think too much about who is in your life and what is or isn't happening. Every journey begins with a step. So take a small step each day toward your goals, while stopping to smell the roses and before you know it, you will look back and see how far you've gone. Trust yourself to become better. When you become better your positivity will attract those who are meant to be in your life.
Unwanted
@Avrey111 there is always someone for everyone. Someday soon, someone will want you for who you are. Be hopeful. Wait with expectancy. Trust and believe it no matter what the odds. And that person will find you.
@Avrey111 nah you've got us and WE want you!! xx
I feel happy that I talked to a ton of sweet people!
@lovingTortoise8989 i feel so happy for you!! xx i hope tomorrow will be a good day for you too (:
Like a sunken ship. I am trying to feel calm and hope the next few hours will be ok
I feel happy that I talked to a ton of sweet people!
Awful. Missing things, and as if I had a big metal ball inside my tummy.
Really low
Today I am feeling lost hurt sad and like a I failed at something I had no control over.
@Believenhope oh man, you sound really upset!! ): i hope after a good sleep tonight, tomorrow will be a brand new day for you!! xx
@haphapz it was hard to swallow but I think over all I am doing ok. I found out that my soon to be ex husband asked another girl to marry him and used my son to ask her I was hurt that they did not give me a heads up and that I found out via social media and close friends. I am upset that he has just moved on so fast with her. This makes his 3rd marriage and he was my first, honestly I don't ever want to get married again because I feel that I failed at my first one that I could not go through feeling the emotional rollercoaster of all the what ifs if I do get married again. I just never got married to get a divorce and feel that I am not worth another marriage. I am working through all of that but I don't think it will ever change.
Needy.. I have been constantly messaging my friends group today, talking about anything that comes to mind. I had planned to do stuff today but I can't concentrate on that until I have a social interaction. I can't push myself to do anything without the hope of someone being there to do it with me. How can a person go from being completely independent, to always needing someone to hold their hand? I hate getting into these slumps because I know I physically won't move from my house until someone asks to see me. Why do I feel so lonely? Why am I unable to do things by myself? These are the questions I ask myself everyday and yet I am still searching for my answers.
As lonely as I am every other day
@RoosterRoo8170
@RoosterRoo8170 I hope you can find time to enjoy your own company. Dance naked in the house. Imagine yourself singing in a rock band etc and put on your head phones and sing out loud. Play with the water on your tub. Don't wait for someone to feel less lonely. When you find joy by yourself for yourself, you will find the radiance that shines out of you will attract the kind of people you want in your life. Forget gloom and doom. Just bloom right now! 😎
@RoosterRoo8170 nah you're not lonely, please remember we've got your back!! xx
