A first yesterday
It’s been three weeks and I’m still a disaster. I’ve tried to just completely distract myself with work, I don’t even wanna go out with friends still. I was so busy last night I realized this morning there was an entire 2 hour period I didn’t think about him, probably the first two hours he hasn’t been on my mind in I dunno how long. Made me feel kinda sad to be honest, but I guess I’ll try to just keep doing wha Tim doing. I don’t want to distract myself with dating, or even going out, so I guess I’ll work. I still feel so empty though.
I know that feeling. The first time I realised I hadn’t thought about my ex for nearly a whole day it was such a big deal. I was painting my room and had music going and I just forgot for a while. But then the emptiness came back. And I also panic if I don’t have my phone by me because it’s the last ‘link’ to old messages and photos and stuff. It’s hard.