Breaking Up While Battling Depressive Episode
I’m in the midst of a depressive episode, honestly, caused by him straying and physically cheating. We’ve been dating (long distance) for two years. We’ve been friends for ten years. He’s everything to me. I Bever felt good enough growing up - my mom always compared me to others. I’ve carried this into my adult relationships. He seemed to get that but his patience with it has worn thin and for the past two months has told me I’m acting like a bratty teenager. For the past week I’ve given him space. I feel like I’ve been walking on egg shells around him. I love him so much and he’s the only person who has known and seen the real me for me. I feel like he has completely broken me and now I just feel worthless.
Wow you’re situation is so similar to mine. I’m sorry, believe me I know exactly what you are going through right now. I’ve found that talking on here helps when you get that “world is coming down” feeling. Seeing your post actually helped me not feel so alone or pathetic ya know? You just have to hang in there. Keep talking it out with people, eventually someone will give you a bit of hope that you can grab onto. One thing is for sure, you are most definitely NOT worthless.
depressive episodes can be so difficult to go through, and espeicaly get out of because you feel like that's how youre going to feel for the rest of time. but i can promise you that not everything is permenant, including the negative feelings youre feeling right now. you are loved and as loong as you can recognize that then i want you to spend time with those who you know truly love you, they will help you get through these rough times.
if you ever need to chat ill be here :) lots of love
