Exhausted
Today I didn’t cry as much as yesterday, not because Im no longer sad but I think because I’m physically and emotionally exhausted and I just want to sleep. I actually got out of bed today but didn’t feel like I could do much more after only a few hours. I think I’ll take sleeping over crying for now. Thank you for letting me use this space to vent as there isn’t really anywhere else to turn.
Hello @kindLime9521, thank you for sharing how you feel here, with us. Crying does make us exhausted at some point, even though crying is one of the ways we express our emotions, just like laughter. I feel how challenging and hard this is on you. I hope you will be able to take care of yourself. We are here for you. 
It seems no matter how tired I am, how down right exhausted this has made me, after a few hours I wake with the heart wrenching pains of my new reality, or force myself to wake up from a dream of him that won’t ever happen. I hope this new cycle, being so sad in the day I can barely move or do anything, and not able to sleep at night despite being exhausted, is not my new reality.