Feeling empty
I’m not crying nearly as much as I was last week, but I just feel empty. Completely void of all happiness or “fineness.” I miss him so much my heart actually hurts. I want to move on so I can feel better, but part of me, the sick part wants to be sad because at least I’m still connected to him that way. Everyone tells me I’m better off, go date, it’s summer, but this doesn’t feel better, I feel completely empty. I lost my best friend and love of my life.
I'm going trough the same thing and i know it is not easy. i cry myself to sleep every single night. but i also talk to myself, my rational part speaks to my irrational one. try to do that!! try to rationalize the situation and consider the things that made you sad during the relationship. you don't miss him, you miss the old memories that you have with him and it is not the same thing. please take your time to think about yourself and improve your health and self acceptance. sending you love🌸
I too lost my best friend, we were together many years. I feel so lost without him...we did everything together. I can't seem to stick to the No Contact thing....even though it hurts to hear from him, it hurts even more NOT to have a connection to him. How are you doing this week?
Omg this sooo sounds like me.. I’m going through a similar situation and its still very fresh. He was my best friend only friend and the one i thought i would grow old with. He doesn’t want to talk to me and i just can’t seem to let go. I waited 8 years to find myself to find love again only for us to go from friends with each other all the time to this. Loneliness. It’s so confusing and painful at the same time
I find myself thinking about all the empty promises made when we were together. All the things we said we would do but he never wanted to include me, all the things he did then I so desperately wanted to be a part of but wasn’t included in. This weekend was hard because I knew he was out doing all those things, but that’s just it he was doing all the things he wanted to never including me when we were together too, so why does it hurt so much. He never had time for me but did for everything else. He’s contacted me Almost every day this week and I don’t get it. If he’s thinking of me why didn’t he ever want me around then. I feel like a giant secret and that he was embarrassed of me and I still do now even though it’s over. I feel so low and stupid for thinking he would ever finally choose me and make me a priority. I’m so angry at myself and so sad, and of course I still love him but he obviously never loved me back so why am I clinging on to something that was probably never even real. My heart aches so much
