First breakup, I'm feeling sad and struggling.

Hi! I'm Latina 22F and is been a month and a week since I broke up with my ex 22M (who is half Pakistani/Muslim half Christian/American). We dated for 3 years, we are each other first relationship. We got along well, everything between us was going good, we are open minded people and we just understood each other and supported each other in ways we never felt supported before. I felt drawn to him for the first moment I saw him and felt at peace like I known him for a long time. And he felt the same way that he must have seen me before and felt understood for the first moment we talked.

I did the breakup, I'm naturally shy and I don't like confrontation also I grew up sheltered. And for the entirety of my relationship his dad wanted me out of the picture so he can add another girl into the mix. The dad would "advice" my ex to cheat on me, lie, test waters with other girls by saying "she works too much, her parents are strict don't you want someone who is always around? You can go on emotional dates with other girls, test waters as long as you are not having sex with them, don't let her now" and would make comments to belittle my culture, when we would eat at a Latin resturant and my ex brought back food home his dad would say "do you actually like this or you pretend that you do?" The dad is also very controlling and (I suspect) a narcissist that or the dad is extremely arrogant. Whenever we had discussion the dad would butt in to our relationship or his dad