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@prettybluesky

Hey there, hopefully you are doing well. There's a few things I would like to point out;

It was a normal day, like any other, we both went to the gym and then decided to go grab some lunch. We were talking about his sister getting married and about his work. Everything seemed to be fine, so we decided to go to my house, since I had to pick up my brother and take him to church. Then we went back to my house, and I went to the bathroom, and left my phone with him. When I was done, I can see how he is checking my phone, and he found some texts with a friend of mine, but there was nothing wrong with the texts.(This communicates he has trust issues and insecurities, someone who is secure on themeselves would not be checking their partner phone like this. ) He said that I was cheating, (He is doing projection here, there's a chance he is blaming you for something he did). which I wasnt. We tried to talk, but he said he wanted a break, but I didnt.(He was actually sabotaging things because love and closeness comes with a price to him, so he did all of this to also feel comfortable in his own space. The closeness was starting to scare him, this triggered your anxiety and then you did whatever it took to pull him closer which then pushed him away) So then he said that we werent breaking up, that it was just a bump in the road. (He became uncomfortable with the level of emotional closeness) He hugged me, then said he had to go, since it was already late. Once he got home, he sent me a text saying that he didnt want that relationship anymore, that it was over.(That's very low of him to do, he didn't have the guts to breakup with you over text. I know how this feels, you must had felt tons of anxiety and hurt/) 2weeks later he is dating someone new, (This tells me he has been seeing this person for a long time, it just didn't happen over night)and blocking me from all his social media, like if I was nothing to him. (This shows how immature and childish he is) Thanks to this, Ive been having some panic attacks, which is a horrible feeling. (I can completly relate to how it feels, it feels awful going through this everyday. The real reason you are feeling this way is because of separation anxiety, and its triggering your past abandonment and neglect you suffered growing up, so you are dealing with various things at the same time) I dont know what to do, I cant stop thinking about him, and how much I wish he was with me, and not with her. D: (It's normal to feel that way, breakups are very painful to go through, but it's important to never come back with him after the way he ended things and then blocked you)