I cant forgive myself, i cant stop crying because of what i did
I love my gf more than anything in the world but i fucked up i am gonna be as concrete as possible so a little background:
been together for a year after being after her for 2 she was my first sexual encounter and i actually belive we could be together forever so i started wondering abot other girls.. she has been with other guys and said it was worth so i was curious
we are in a long distance thing right now
fast foward to a really drunk me in a bad moment i ended up cheating on her with a sex worker because of a really bad slit second decition, never felt worse in my life, now i have no doubts i want to be only with my gf forever i know i love her and i know i can do it i can be a good boyfriend
cant spot feeling like shit and yes i know i deserve it
i dont wan to tell my gf because she suffers from depression and it was my mistake i deserve the burden, she is finally happy with me and i dont want to hurt her.
i cant change what i did fuck i wish i could
i can only learn something and be better i guess
i just feel so disgusted with myself right now its really hard to live with
@Nicolas9999
Hi there, I can really hear how devastated and regretful you are about your action, and can only imagine how hard it must be for you to forgive yourself. Mistakes do happen though, and though I'm not saying that what you did is right, take it easy on yourself. Just know that there is always a reason why we are driven to a certain decision. Were you lonely? Did you want more from a relationship? Perhaps it might help to take some time to reflect.
All in all, it's a difficult position to be in, and I wish that there was something I could say to fix this. If talking helps, perhaps try connecting to a listener here as well. Bottling this up might give your girlfriend a peace of mind, but it sounds like it could get too overwhelming for you
@Nicolas9999
Hi.I am sorry that you are going through this hard situation at the moment ,I know it's wrong to cheat but you can't turn back time now just take this as a lesson learned
we are all humans and we all make mistakes as 2cupsofteaa said there is always a reason why we are driven to a certain decision so perhaps you could so some searching to know what that might had been ..
I really wish you all the best and if you ever want to chat pls feel free to send me a message or to any of the other wonderful listeners in here :)
