I miss him terribly, even though there's no good reason I should.

It's hard to move on when you love that person. For me I still have a spot in my heart for my ex girlfriend. Even though she hurt me so badly i still love the time we had together, and wouldn't replace that for anything.

I can't promise that he wont always have a spot in your heart and mind. What i can promise is that it does get easier to cope.

Stay strong

I am going through a very similarsituation.I think we'll always remember the people we love, but the pain will dull. I'm trying to accept that I am hurting now while still acknowledging the good things I have. I hope that you can too, though I know it's hard when the person we love has hurt us. Please have hope that you won't always feel this way. Maybe we can console each other. :)

Well I've been talking a lot with my listener and I've finally realized what my relationship was. It was abusive. Mentally and emotionally. He's hurt me in so many ways. Suddenly changing and using me and cutting my off for no reason. He used to be the reason I was clean but now I find myself relapsing because of him. He'll cut me off for a while and make me feel like the bad guy but then randomly come back and be all nice like nothing ever happened. I see how bad this is. I really do....but I miss him. I miss him like crazy. I know it's just because he his me trapped in a mental mind game but still... I liked it. It's tough. That's really all I can say. It's tough. Especially when the times come for him to come back and act like nothing ever happened because I feel like maybe just maybe we can go back to old times but I'm clinging on to broken and fading hopes and memories and it's hard to get over.