I still want to go back...why do i love u.

I recently left my relationship in vegas and moved to arizona. Its been a month going on two. I miss him , i think of him all the time until , i speak to him and in the moment of moving back i remember all the bad things he did, the talking to other girls, treating me like i was nothing, the things that he would say, the times i was so scared to sleep in the same bed with you and i would face the wall so i wouldnt have to face you and i would curl up and cry myself to sleep. But you never wanted me far, you would pull me to you. Why did you make me do it , why did you make me love you...