Just a small part to my long story

I am currently in the process of getting divorced. I have heard some horror stories. My divorce isn't completely horrible, but there are some bad times. I got pregnant and decided to get married. It started out okay, but it got bad after I had my son. I knew something was wrong. I would wake up to him screaming and I would ask for help. He would just ignore me and pretend to be asleep. At one point I got so frustrated I started shaking my child to get him to be quiet. My husband woke up and started screaming at me and snatched the baby away from me. Yet he never took me to a doctor, never did anything. The next day, he continued to ignore me. I became so depressed. I felt so alone. I didn't want to be near my child. Throughout the entire marriage, he has ignored me. I have been depressed. Now we are separated. It's still depressing. Especially knowing that he has a girlfriend living with him already. I know nothing about her. She has no job, no money, no car and no other place to live. She doesn't even have custody of her own children. I have to stop myself. I could write a book about all that I have gone through. Thanks in advance for reading and/or replying. I appreciate it!