My breakup story and depression part 1

It all started on the the 18 of january. We had a science project on genetics so we needed to be paired with a person of te opposite sex. There was a girl in front of me who I thought was really cute and gorgeous. Since I am a guys I needed to be with a girl. When the teacher said that I didn't knew what to do, but the girl in front of me turned back and gave me a wink, so I got with her. We didnt really knew eachother but we had talked once lr twice before. We did the project togheter and I would keep making jokes about genetics over and over and she laughed, a lot. Well I didn't really expected her to laugh so much but I guess I really enjoyed it. So all as well, we didnt talk or txt really after that but I knew her a bit more, she liked to laugh. So when we went on a ski trip the 19 of febuary, she was there! Because ahe was a friend of my friend we skiied togheter with all of my friends. I would trow snow at her for jokes and stuff and I will remember this moment for the rest of my life. When we came back with the buses, someone txted me on my phone. I didnt knew who it was, but I guessed that girl because I knew that girl had something for me, I knew it from the ways she kept starring into my green eyes. So after that she would always ask help from me in science and since we would talk like 2h everynight. At this point, I didn't if I loved her of not, I surely tough she was beautiful but I wasnt in love, yet. Since she was really close to me (aka. Best friend) we had a bunch of party.