Push n pull

Hi everyone so I'm in a relationship who has major trust issues which I'm well aware of as our relationship we were platonic friends for over 10 years there's but For some reason he always tells me what I think of him and assumes it's quite bad bad and derogatory opinions of Him but regardless of how many times he leaves the relationship and comes back to me I am always there for him. Recently We were what seemed to be on a good path of communication as we cannot be together right now due to his personal circumstances but we had been communicating very well so then I felt comfortable enough to try to explain to him what I think anfeel and things that have been on my mind for the past year really wasnt looking for anything but validation from him I guess. Instead it turned out to be Him saying well I guess I've already made up my mind and then proceeding to tell me how hes miserable and he doesn't have any validation for me so I can go ahead and go get them from my other male friends or dating sites which I'm not on but that sounds like jealousy to me and I'm just really confused why it feels like hes jealous but at the same time hes telling me that we are over because this relationship is fake and I'm fake and He knows what I think of him and hes not happy and I'm not happy which is really unfair of him to tell me how I feel about us. And I don't know how to make him understand I was happy buy if he isn't I need him to stop telling me he loves me. It seems like we are always OK until I try to discuss with him past events that have made me insecure or made me question him when the only reason I'm bringing them up is because I'm trying to make him understand what Maybe causing me doubt of him at that time so that he can fix it. But at the very least don't tell me you love me and want to be with me then tell me that you've been unhappy and you want out of this relationshipBut portray jealousy in the same sentence.

Can someone please tell me what it is I'm supposed to believe in the mix of the I love yous and the this is the end of us