Scared it might end horribly
Fiance sounds on the fence of ending our relationship. It's gotten to the point where I can't even be myself with her anymore. It's like she's numbed out completely between us. We don't want to break up, yet she sort of wants to at the same time. I can't help if I'm delaying the inevitable and we do split. She hasn't been feeling positive about between us and quite frankly, my confidence in working things out are starting to reduce a bit. It's so fucking messy and I'm afraid of the outcome. I feel lost between us because of this and being long distance isn't helping either. I don't know what to do.
Listen, the only thing what matters here is if you love her or not.
If you do work for the relationship if not then it's only fir the better.
Ask her the same question, communication is the key here.
I'm not saying you'll break up but postponing the inevitable will only increase the time for you to move on.
I’d say try to meet her face to face to talk about it. Sometimes the distance that make you guys apart. It’s hard to maintain a long distance relationship. I’m in LDR and when we’re arguing, one of us would come to see each other and things become okay.
If that isn’t possible, then try to give some times for both of you. People said absence makes heart grow fonder. Took some time to think thorough if the relationship worth to fight for. Sometimes we just don’t realize what we had until we lose them.
Third, I’d say solve the underlying issue. There must be reason why she wants to end the relationship. And it could be a long brewed issue that isn’t discussed between you two. Maybe it’s the same problem keep on repeating that she is tired with it. Communication is very important in relationship. Ask her why. Ask her what you could do to make things better.
To love someone and being reciprocated is something magical. I hope you both can keep on being together and loving each other as you guys used to do. Wishing you the best :)