I Wish I Had Someone With Whom I Could Share...................

I Wish I Had Someone With Whom I Could Share my happiness as well as sadness

My insecurities.

@ASilentObserver I wish I had someone with whom I could share my thoughts

... everything that

@ASilentObserver,

I wish I had someone who would know the real me and accept me for who I am,my soul mate if there is such a thing,I want to believe it can happen but at the same time I am so afraid,panic and almost freeze with fear, that I .will get hurt again.So I reject every attempt of someone to get closer to me.And that's a circle very hard to get out of.I wish I had someone to share me with and vice versa.I don't know if my wish is healthy. because maybe my wish means giving too much power over me to the other person and that's a risky situation..maybe I am sabotaging my relationships with unrealistic expectations.But ,on the other hand ,what would life be without a dream or without the dreamers?For me ,it would be a very boring place.So maybe I am dreaming a dream here of great love with intense feelings.I usually put a lot in the relationship (if not everything)and expect the same from the other person,which can scare people away.But it's just the way I am.That's why,I guess I am hesitant to start a relationship,because I don't want my life to become chaotic when I am left out and have to deal with consequences and responsibilities after the break-up.I know I need to find the middle ground but I still can't figure it out.At least I am looking for answers and explanations why I do what I do and ,hopefully,with time everything will come in its place,we need to believe something good will happen to us,right? :)

I wish I had someone with whom I could share my place - so I can pay less for my monthly rent LOL