I wish I had someone with whom I could share . . . .
I'm currently studying for the CPA board exam. I have already graduated from college but I can't get my transcript of records from the school which apparently is one of the requirements so you can file for the CPA board exam because I haven't passed the mockboard exam in school. I've already missed two CPA board exams because of that. I'm supposed to be working now since I've already graduated but I can't tell to anyone that I'm still stuck with this mockboard exam or I'm still not yet earning on my own. I can't chat with people I know because I know they'll just ask me about my life. But it's very lonely studying for a long time for one big exam without anyone I can talk to. So here I am, finding people I can talk to anytime I need them.
I have doubts about my relationship of 5 years. He just seems so uninterested in talking with me, asking me things, or helping me take care of the house and our dog. All our sweet moments-- chatting, connecting,cuddling, etc., revolve around his desire or availability. When i try to connect, i often feel rebuffed. When i communicate my needs, no matter how gently or straightforward, i feel unwelcome, shut down. I feel as though I have to "earn" his affection. His smiles and approval are a much rarer treat than ever before. I know that he is also struggling with his own anxiety, balance of work, relationship, and self time, but if he feels ambushed or annoyed and does not participate each time I try to make things better, when will they get better? I was recently diagnosed with OCPD and i now realize why I need certain household things done precisely to be comfortable. I want to share with him how he can help ease my stress by pitching in more-- he works hard full time and I am a part time student and part time worker, so I know that a lot of the household stuff is my responsibility right now. But soon I will be very busy and I need to know it won't all fall apart. He feels that when i bring up these issues i am telling him he does not make me happy and that I'm criticizing him in a personal way. But now I don't even want to do extra things for him because it seems silly to pamper him while I am so distraught because of him.
@JKW thats really hard...i suggest you take sometime off your work to have effective treatment and helping him to get better...please dont blame yourself or him for this situation...both of you need help...u can ask family for this
@JKW
hello dear, from my experience,and I'm probably no the only one to think that, from the moment you start to think you have to earn someone interest or affection it's a sign there is a problem. If despite your effort he is not paying attention, sometimes the best thing to do is to walk away. Even if it seems hard,the scare of being alone and stuff. But it's better to be alone than in bad company, I don't know you or your guy and I'm only giving an opinion. The decision of what to do next is up to you.
everybody deserves to be with someone who is able to understand and accept us as we are, and helping us when things are down. A relationship is not a one way street, things have to be done both ways you to your partner or your partner to you.
i hope things will get better for you.
A laugh with. I miss laughing uncontrollably until I cry. Now I just skip the laughing uncontrollably section of that happiness. I wish for that back.
I wish i had someone i could share my issues with an someone to love me
My story and help me to be strong and leave this destructive relationship
My deepest fears.
My true feelings with without being judged as a mentally retard.
Everything! I've been alone all my life. Sometimes solitude is a good thing, but I would love someone with ehom to share life's burdens. And the little things, like a walk or watching a TV show together
I want to be alone most of the times. But then I get so lonely so I look for someone to talk to. Even then, I feel like no one can ever understand. They would tell me that I'm being too dramatic and emotional. Maybe I am.
I wish I had someone with whom I could share all my thoughts and feelings, but I am too scared to do so. :(
Makes two of us
@beautifulDreamer64
me too. guess that's why we are here..?
@memyselfandi67
Hi I am ScarletPear1945 you can find me to be a friend and a listener. There are many people who will reach all ou you a loving and understanding Try to reach out just a little bit and you'll see you have much support. We are all here because we have issues
@beautifulDreamer64
I hope you have found someone to talk to, but if you have not we can talk to each other. I am here to be a friend. I was going through that feeling but I now have a Therapist and I have met people here that are very good listeners. Just reach out, don't suffer alone
@zeroShade
you can talk to me if u need help...to feel comfortable, I will tell u about my self...
@beautifulDreamer64
I will be your friend and I will listen without judgment. We can share our issues or just be friends. Don't be afraid to reach out, it helps to get stuff off your chest so you can be free.
@beautifulDreamer64
I feel the same way. Funny how the listeners have trouble being listened to.
