Need advice on cheating husband

@sympatheticTriangle4305

Hey there, hopefully you are doing well. There's a few things I would like to point out;

Hey guys this is really a me asking for help as right now I'm heartbroken I'm going to start from the beginning my husband and I have been married 5 years before we got married at the start of our relationship he cheated and his ex told me I forgave him as it was the start and I was still dating and talking to guys .we both had a new start and things was great we moved in got our first house got married. Then when I was pregnant with our son I find out he had taken a girls number (This is a red flags, he felt like his needs were not meet and didn't express them openly so he decided to get them met through someone else. He is showing he doesn't have intengrity and its hard to be asleep with both eyes closed with someone like him) he told me nothing happened (He minimized the situation for his convinience and make it seem like he did nothing wrong) and I believe him (I don't because of the way he asked for a woman number) and be because I was only a few weeks away from having our son I gave him a chance. Now this week a letter came it was two parking tickets to a hotel at two different times for a few hours at each time. I asked him if he been hotel for any reason he said no (You could start to see how his lies are starting to not make any sense. He could have told you the truth, but he decided to lie to you) so I told him he got two tickets last week from a hotel. Now his been acting funny he came home just not saying anything lying in bed with the covers over his head. (He knows you caught him, and now he is choosing to not communicate with you as an attempt to punish you. This is not the kind of behavior you would want in a man because its going to make the relationship fall apart) I'm going mad I just hate him our son sick and we have been in and out of hospital I gave up working my friends and now I feel I'm left with this lying cheating husband. (You have a choice, quite frankly I don't think he is going to be a good partner or father with this kind of behavior)

I'm so heartbroken and I don't know what to do i can't leave as my son school is here (Usually people look for reasons that will support their decision into staying in a relationship that isn't working. I think the real reason you are not willing to leave is because of fears you have within) but all my family live far from me. I can't do this alone and I do love him. I know we deserve better then this(No, you deserve better than this) but I feel so low so ugly so useless.