Advice please
My bf and I have been dating for the past 5 years. We were our firsts sexually we met when we were 16. When he went to night school for senior year he had started watching porn of which I didn't want him too. A year after that we had moved in together and I found out about the porn. After I found out he lied to me for almost 2 years saying things like "they were better, more attractive, I wanted them more, I had sex with them, I wish you dressed like a slut, I wish you could have fucked like a pornstar" and more horrible things. All the horrible things he said to me lead to argument after argument cause he had made me believe them as the truth. That fighting went on for the 2 years he was telling the lies to me causing us to break up.
We were apart for a month before getting back together, we both wanted to change for the better so we agreed to start over with each other. While we were apart he looked and asked other women for nudes while also having his own saved on his phone to send to them. But when we got back together he continued to ask for their nudes until I found out.
It's been 2 months since I caught him asking for nudes and he's been allot better. I just don't trust him after everything he has done, some days I'm conflicted over weather I should stay or go. I just feel scared at either option. I don't want to leave since he's been doing better but I don't want to stay either. I'm just not sure what to do.
@intelligentAvocado8214
I'm sorry you feeling unsure at the moment ❤ You've been through a lot together so it makes sense that it's hard to process but I can hear that you've tried really hard to make it work. It's easy to see that you have strong feelings for your boyfriend and you want things to improve but it sounds like his behaviour is causing you hurt and confusion.
Its scary to think of a long term relationship ending, especially one with as much history as yours. Being single brings a sense of the unknown and that can feel uncomfortable. I trust that you'll make the right decision for you in this moment and don't forget you can always have a 1-1 chat with a listener if you think that might help.
Take care
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This might not be the answer your looking for but I think you should definetly leave him. I know you've been with him for so long but he has cheated (maybe not physically) but nudes are still a form of it for many couples. There are so many great guys out there that will treat you with respect and show you that they only want you. Hope this helps, Take care :)