Stress in relationship

Hey guys I haven’t been on here for 4 months and I just feel like I needed to update my relationship status and I need someone to talk to so far my arguments have been less worse but today I decided to snoop around and found heart breaking things about my bf. I ended up comparing to myself to these models in his save and wondering why I don’t look at that. I also sent him a goodnight message and checked on *** and saw he was texting his friends but never responded back to me. I also found out about his smoking addiction which I don’t care about him doing that but it’s just the fact he lied to me about not doing that. It’s just the little things that hurt me and he doesn’t get that. I feel like I’m the one in the relationship that nitpick things but I know it isn’t my fault. I’m just so hurt from all this and I’m like at step one again. I spammed him messages but I didn’t thing much through so hopefully he understands me. I just don’t what to say to him when he wakes up. Thank u for listening.