afraid of losing him

so i got grounded from like literally everything and ive been using google docs on my computer to talk to my boyfriend. its been really hard to talk to him and bc we go to different schools i dont get to see him. im scared that hes gonna move on and drop me bc its getting difficult. i want to do all i can to make sure hes happy, and honestly, rn it seems that he might be happier without worring abt all this even tho he says hell wait no matter what. idk im just lost and idk what to do