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I just got out of a long distance situation that i am now regretting letting go of. i know it’s for the best because i have a boyfriend and it’s selfish of me to hold onto someone and hurt my boyfriend who has been by my side. idk why i cheated and i really hate myself for it. some days it’s hard to even tolerate myself because i never thought id do that.. i’m not sure if that’s what i’m grieving over or losing him but i feel so empty. he wasn’t the best person to me but then again he was.. but who am i to complain, i deserve it. idk my emotions are everywhere and im feeling everything at once but nothing at all. i guess this is where loneliness gets you. i don’t know who i am anymore and im trying so hard to regain control and be better. im sorry if none of this makes sense
@wanderer444
I hear you, I understand. It makes sense- it does sound like a very overwhelming thing to go through. I hear you when you say that you hate yourself for cheating, and that guilt is understandable. It is a lot to handle sometimes, like it was no doubt not a good thing to do. I understand why all that is making you lonely and bad about...I hope you're able to manage those feelings better with time, and maybe forgive yourself. We are all here for you anytime you want to reach out
I understand this. Situations can be complicated and doing right by someone can be difficult when you can’t make sense of your emotions. Ultimately If you want to are to have a rewarding experience in your relationship that’s where to invest yourself. But if you don’t know where you stand try to figure that out before. I hadn’t let go of someone in my heart even though I knew they were wrong for me and it hampered my next relationship I hadn’t given myself time to come to terms with it. Hope you feel better with it soon
