Friendship break
yesterday night my bestfriend and i decided to take a brek from our friendship, because at some point we became toxic for each other, it seemed like the best thing to do... when i woke up this morning i didn't feel released , i didn't feel better, i just feel empty, i want to cry , i don't want to do anything ... i am scared of what might happen to us afterwards, i feel so empty =/
A friend I really care about wanted to take a break from me. She didn't even tell me how she was feeling or give a chance to fix it. She sent a really long two part message a few days ago. In the message she said two things I really can't forget. Every little thing I did annoyed her and she couldn't stand to be around me. She said in the message she wasn't trying to hurt me. I felt angry, betrayed, and just so very deeply hurt. I recorded a video and sent to her saying that she would have her space and that I was hurt and I would also need time and space after feeling so insulted and wounded by her words. That was Sunday night. I spent most of Monday feeling angry and sad. I almost think I could forgive her on the spot. Another part of me worriers I would be petty and try to say something to hurt her back. Right now I'm so hurt I've stopped talking to our mutual friends, going so far as to cancel all plans and weekly gatherings. I asked her not to mention why to anyone. I feel so ashamed by it all. I'd rather everyone thinks I'm a jerk, rather that I pushed her into hating me somehow. Right now I feel like I'm just trying to survive this.
@selfconfidentSky2527, heey first of all, don't feel ashamed , you should not !! i lived situations where i coudn't stand my friend either but this doesn't mean i didn't care about him, i really did but it's just that sometimes when a friendship becomes so strong it can lead to crossing some boundaries, and then people feel suffocated, just give your friend some time and take some time too, if she cares about you the way you do, i'm sure she will apologize for the harsh words she used, and for hurting you, don't drown into lonliness though because you might end up all messed and feel even more hurt... just give it sometime and things will be alright :)
