Hiding/blocking out my friends

I have a small group of friends who know about my mental issues and almost all the problems in my life. They're really the best ppl I have in my life. They regularly chat with and check up on me. Because of them, I'm still alive and my mental issues are getting slowly fixed.
I recently went through a breakup (for the second time) which caused me to relapse into frequent panic attacks, deep anxiety, depression, and intrusive thoughts. Starting 2 days ago, I felt like I was going to be a bully to everyone I talk to so I decided to distance myself from everyone. I haven't looked at my msgs on discord or insta since then. I should msg them back cuz otherwise they'll get worried and think my mental problems took me too far but I rly rly don't want to.
Should I make myself talk to them?