I miss her
A couple months ago someone I was really close to stopped talking to me and I'm pretty depressed about it. She was a Japanese girl that I've known and talked to for four years through email. A couple months ago her friend got diagnosed with cancer and I haven't heard from her since. At first she said it was her mom because her friend didn't want anyone to know and she felt horrible for lying to me, I told her it wasn't a big deal and she still felt horrible and said she didn't deserve to talk to me anymore.
She could be lying and I could've been played for four years but it's whatever. Her emails were the only thing that made me feel good in my life, she was the only person that I truly wanted to talk to every day and now she's just gone.
Even if she was lying it doesn't mean I don't miss her. I feel so alone without her, she was one of the only things in my life that made me happy.
I miss her a lot and am worried about her all the time. This coupled with my grandma passing in May has been slowly killing me from the inside. I'd never do anything to hurt myself though because I'd miss my dog, the pain is still shitty though.
Just need to vent more than anything.
I'm so sorry that this has happened to you :( maybe try distracting yourself by doing other things and talking to 1 on 1 conversations on here will help. Just find something to make you happy and find a couple of things you love because having only 1 thing you love can sometimes back lash because if you lose that 1 thing it is terrible. but anyhow it will get better, i believe you will get better :) hope i helped! wish you the best luck -MHM
I was on tumblr one day, 2 summers ago just scrolling through my dash and there's this blog that people write letters on and this girl had written one saying she needed a friend. She left her email and so i sent her a message. I started to tell her how sad i was feeling and she was helping me but after a week or two she stopped replying even though telling her how i was doing was really helping. So I kind of know how you feel
Hey I've been there. I used to have this friend that I was really close to. We would both text eachother good morning and goodnight every single day. I'd tell her my deepest fears and my dreams. We had nicknames for each other. I loved her...not in the romantic way but I still loved her. One day she just stopped talking to me. It was killing me from the inside. She was my best friend but the one thing that kept me going is would I really want to put forth the effort and get nothing in return? People come and go in life but the ones that stay with you are the ones that matter. I know what I'm saying probably doesn't help but everything tends to unfold as it should
I've been there. It feels like something's missing from yourself that hurts and aches.
