Struggled to secure friendships my whole life

Hi.

My name is Hudson. I am a "Newbie" to 7 Cups of tea. I would like to do a little introduction thing and then vent... So, I am an introverted young adult who ultimatley gets the most joy out of life when he is alone and engaging with his solitary hobbies- whether that be playing Nintendo video games, watching movies and television (Star Wars being a favorite of mine), reading, some writing... Yeah. As an introvert, my alone time provides restorative, comforting solitude. I understand that doesn't really have too much to do with introversion's actual defintion, but I am quiet nearly all of the time. I don't know, being quiet as opposed to talking is just a mental state of comfort for me. However, there are other factors that play into my largely quiet nature too, such as my struggle with anxiety, both generalized and social. This anxiety manifests in me being hyper-aware and concerned about being as polite and kind to people as possible... I tend to be really serious in that regard. Another, but more uncertain variable, is the possible presence of mild autism. My healthcare provider lists it as a condition of mine... There are some possible indicators, such as my struggle with communcication in general, such as missing verbal cues or not understanding entirely how to recpripocate verbal cues. I end to have narrow interests... Sorry, this is getting lengthy, I'll continue this in my responses...