Toxic Friendship

I won't share my feelings here , but I'll tell you about how I leave my toxic friend both crush too. And I hope , you can do it ! There will always someone deserve you.

I will call him , Andrew. Coz , I don't wanna provoke him.

At last August 2019. Me and Andrew met at engineering faculties orientation.

He knew me first from WhatsApp group. Then , I had new friend at architecture faculty. A lot of them are civil and electrical engineering.

First , he was calm and thoughtful from my sight. Coz , his face is mature than other member.

Me and Andrew chatted again till we were really close. And , suddenly I had a crush to him.

I remembered , first time. While we were fighting. I got bullied first at university. Coz , I left class group chat and Andrew felt angry about it.

Second , when I still had feeling to him. At middle term test. I planned to gave him at present. But , when I gave it to him. He was rejecting my present. And , I felt sad. But , I didn't know. If , he had toxic behaviour here.

Like , he rarely praise me. Yeah , I know. I'm pleaser. But , he always criticised me. When , I got performed to playing piano at stage. He said " Why u attend it , if you feel insecure to yourself. " , Second I felt one sided relationship from him. He never gives me feedback.

When , I closed to him. I always felt tired emotionally and anxiety too. He got good grade. I felt like jealous to him. Not praised him.

Second semester , I have attended online class and left him. Finally , I can !