communication with your friends is IMPORTANT.

@peachkitty

Hey there, hopefully you are doing well. Theres a few things I would like to point out;

to make a long story short, this guy i cared about a lot was a very flaky friend to me for months, and i put up with it. but at the end of august, i didnt take any more of it and i told our whole Discord he was a furry (which was true) out of anger. (I wouldn't have done this because the issue was between you and him, so by bringing up on discord might cause more damage) I'm sorry for what I did, and I apologized. I found out from our mutual friend that he thinks I'm an obsessive stalker. (I don't think you are. Obsessive stalker are people who spy on others, wait at the front door if the other person doesn't want to talk with them, and other things.) While I agree I was clingy in the past, I had asked him time and time again throughout the friendship if i was annoying or if i had done something wrong, (This indicates you always felt like you walked on eggshells and hypervigilant of someone possibly leaving you, so it causes you to feel like you did something wrong all the time when at times you didn't) and he would always say i was okay. (This indicates he is keeping things under the rug and pushing things on the back of his mind without expressing himself)

He talked to me at lunch yesterday, and he seemed nice and i felt hopeful and happy.

but i cant help but feel like he's being nice to me only because he has to. (This is part of the low self-esteem, although I could see why you would think this. If he is being nice, then you could correspond to see where it leads to without coming on strong)

I've done some reflecting on the whole situation recently, and the friendship that we had was really nice, despite the flaws. and if he wanted to,I'd love to try again, as if we had just met. (Thats a good mindset, it would be best to take it very slow to see how the friendship would go)

but just like with everything else i've wondered about him and i, i can't know what the right answer is if he doesn't communicate with me. (I understand how confusing it can be, but always look at his actions to find a clue of whats going on because people like him are afraid of expressing themeselves because of their own fears)