Another Day Without Him... 💔
I'm trying to move on from a guy I liked. Since he's my world and my life is centred around him, it's better to make this thread about him. I want to tell you that it's not easy, whatever phase your relationship is in, whether you are in relationship or not, whether you're even sure of your feelings...but if you think you have fallen in love in so much that it hurts, then this thread is for you. I am not blaming myself, not him, nor anyone for the way things are, it's just my last hope towards life, my last effort. If it fails, I'm gonna leave this leave this world, if it's successful, I'll see. But right now, at this moment, I just wanna say....I love him and still, I feel I have to keep distance. After a lot of crying fits, angry fists, long diary entries, zillion Google searches and unanswered pleas for closure, here I come. To everyone who is hurting this thread is for you.
I don't how I will do, mind you...I will be very fickle-minded. I will preach something and do something else. Be on extremes, be thoughtful, be impulsive, I might not be the person anyone would like,. Let's do this..
#Day 1 without him 💔 (part1)
I see things weird...just recovering from a fever...scared to go to college lest my health worsens...and finding no reason to go.... I'm thinking of not going.
Last day was a bad day. I asked him if he wanted me to stay or not, he didn't reply. So, I asked him if doesn't reply, I'ld take it as a NO and leave him...waited till the end of the day. No reply. I got the hint, and vowed to never message him again. To be honest... Life is meaningless to me. He was the reason I was keeping up with it. My parents don't like that I pursue a source income other than the field I am interested in. And I got no one who loves my true nature. I skipped breakfast, not going to college. Let's see how this goes. I have checked my phone so many times expecting an pology or explanation or acknowledgement of his mistakes....nothing so far. I was thinking of suicide when I got this idea of posting this thread. I might keep checking on my messages to see if there's any from him. BUT I WILL NOT REPLY TO HIS TEXTS OR MESSAGE HIM ON MY OWN WHATEVER HAPPENS Let's see.
Hi love..
I should tell you that I joined this app for the very same reason! I’ve been reading what you wrote and been crying. The guy that I like doesn’t like me … I feel that he even resents me for some reason, I told him that I liked him, no reply.. he is being beyond cold and I also got the hint..
but my heart, I’m shattering into millions and millions of pieces and I feel helpless. I thought of suicide this morning.
i am in *** right now. Why why why did i fall for him? The one who doesn’t give a *** if I lived or died!
why why why am I even breathing. Alive. Awake?
Please text me let's be here for each other ð¥º
It's normal to feel this way. I tried writing things down to such forums where I can find support group and it really helps knowing that I'm not alone in this situation.
Know that you're not alone.
I'm very much going through the same situation. You're quite young and there's a whole long life in front of you. You may find many ways to distract and can find better. Or at least you can engage with friends to distract until he reaches out to you.
Stay calm
Keep hope
Be positive
Be strong
Know that you're not alone
#Day 1 without him 💔 (part 2)
I checked our chat and I saw his last seen was an hour ago. A complete disregard to me. I am hurt. How can someone be so cruel 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. I want to text him and say this to him . BUT I WONT TEXT HIM.
His cruelty is making me more fragile. More soft. More sensitive. Less awake.
😭 we get softer, we empathize more, we listen and understand and reason more. We feel so tender that we get surprised at someone choking on us. 💔
#Day 1 without him 💔 (part 3)
I see he is online and I feel he is talking to some other girl, or doing something more important than me. I am a *** up and I WILL NOT TEXT HIM EVEN THOUGH I BADLY WANT TO. I hurts babe, it hurts 💔.
its a loop, its a never ending loop… broken hearts never mends
Never knew the exact day when I became a stalker and a spy. I read books on relationships, on gender differences, on what not. But I just get wrong how can I be so wrong.
#Dai 1 without him 💔 (part 4)
It's a festival and I'm sure his family celebrates it nicely. I'm the duffer.... I'm the duffer.....
Thanks a lot listener of 7 cups you showed me the way to reach his heart and he talked to me. I am not sure what he said was true or not, I have a lot of doubts about everything he says and everything I know. But what do I do? I want his love, and even if it's fake...I will take it. I can't risk getting devoid of his affection again.
He texts when he wants, answer when he wants, selectively replies to chats. He is my controller I dance at every tune he plays. The moment he stops playi
The moment he stops playing with my remote I get
Sad and lifeless loveless meaningless. I have moved on from things, from people, past relationships....but this guy...he is something else.
