Bf broke up with me before bday

Hi, my bf broke up with me last night, and my birthday is on Saturday. I feel so empty and sad, and when I talk to people I feel better, but feel instantly horrible when I’m alone. We were fine a week ago, and then he gave me silent treatment for a week. Then he text me and said he wanted to break things off. I called him and told him I didn’t want to break up and I didn’t understand. There were issues with his family previously and he said it was that. I told him it was kind of messed up that he would do this right before my bday he said he would go to, that even though he’s hurt me so many times I stayed, and that I waited him for him so much. He began to shout and said “yk what’s messed up, that I have to deal with the issues between you, my sister, and my mother, and the repercussions of all the drama, and every time you came over, I would always be told something”. And I was crying and I said yeah, and I was there for you each time they said something and I always told you what was happening wasn’t your fault. And then he said he didn’t want this anymore, so I hung up. And I blocked him on everything. I just feel so sad because he would tell me these things about the future and that he cared/loved me, but it seems like he’s fine with everything that happened. And I loved him so much and gave him whatever I could. And idk how to move on and I feel like I’m going to have such bad trust issues if I date someone else later on.