Confused and just done.
So long story short me and my boyfriend have been together for 5 years and in the beginning we had a bad break up cops involved blah blah, fast forward since then we’d been on and off ever since,
I didn’t think he was coming back cuz my sister ended up getting him arrested and it got bad but anyway I did the whole depressed in bed for 3 months cried for him ya know the girly in my feelings ***.. I did for 3 months waiting for a message that wasn’t coming, then one day I’m like okay I’m done *** this and remembered who I was , started talking to some idiot, it was more a situationship then a rebound but anyways two months later my ex send me a email saying he missed me blah blah blah, I had every intention in the world of being completely honest with him about everything, but unfortunately I was living with my family at the time and my sister was mad at me and decided to tell him herself which I’m sure she wasn’t completely honest and added false information, and because of that I’m now a liar and a cheat and am still being punished for something I don’t think I should be punished for, anything I say or do or no matter the lengths I go to to prove myself, I still fall short & I can’t for the life of me understand why this is happening, do i deserve it? Am i just never supposed to be happy ? 😭😭💔💔
@carefulsquare619….
Hi
Sorry you find yourself in a difficult complex situation with your ex and with your family.
Sometimes family try do things with the best intentions and that come off wrong especially on how they go about it.
Nothing you have said you have done makes you undeserving of happiness.
You sound very frustrated more so than anything.
The relationship ending and police being inbolved sounds very toxic and it's not our place to pry.
I think you need to have a think about yourself, your actions and choices and is that the way you want to be not just with yourself but with friends , family and any relationship partners.
I think and conversation with your sister is needed to talk about things so you can both see each other views and try to improve.
We all feel at some point we fall short in some areas of life , whether that's work, school, relationships but try not beat yourself up about it.
Wish you the best