Everyone abandons me. What’s wrong with me?
I was in a severely abuaive relationship for 17 years. He beat me, broke baskets on my head, chased me with knives and controlled and manipulated my whole life. Cheated on me and made me believe I was worthless. To keep safe I kept it a secret as best I could.
I decided I had to run so I packed. My two kids and ran. A couple of weeks later be killed himself.
I met someone amazing and now I’m ruining it with trauma responses. I don’t trust him and have severe anxiety that he will leave and cheat.we had a fight last night and he left and won’t answer his phone he said he needs time. What if he doesn’t come back. I am so anxious and panicked right now. Please help.
@HollyJade14,
ever considered professional trauma therapy?
Because you've bee through a lot and for as long as you don't know how to deal with your past any relationship is gonna be tough.
I am lucky enough that I was able to get a place with a trauma therapist in my town. But it’s only one hour a week for 16weeks… I am grateful for it but when I’m struggling at other times I have nowhere to turn to. And when I have to delve in to my childhood which was also pretty hard and my past trauma and experience as well as current worries it’s not much time to unpack it all. It’s brought it all to the surface and I’m struggling to cope and manage it all.