Feels like I have always been, and will always be, alone
I did not have a conventional upbringing. And therefore, I never really made any friends growing up. I dont talk to anyone from my previous schooling, or talk to anyone outside of work. I literally don't have a single friend that I can text or call, let alone see. So it really sucks when I am going through a hard time.
I have been in a weird relationship for years. I say weird, but a part of me really wants to call it abusive. But I dont want to call it that, because it's all I have. And like many have said before, when things are good - they're really good. But when they're bad... my life doesn't feel like it's worth much.
I am too embarrassed to talk to my family. I have strained relationships with them and I feel like they wouldn't understand.
I just feel so alone.
I wish I had a friend to turn to. Or anyone to talk to. But there's so much shame, I don't know what to do.
I’m really sorry you’re going through this. Please reach out to a listener for a non judgemental chat. Feel free to drop me a message at any time and we can organise a time to talk if you like 🙂
Hello! just know that it's never a bad thing to ask for help, our listeners will always lend and ear. whatever you have laying heavy on your shoulders
@xopeachpie please don't feel any shame. You're not alone. We all have complex lives with ups and downs. It's all normal. Glad ure sharing your story here. I'm a member so I can't offer listening but I'm chatting on the forums. Please feel better.
Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it
