He is thriving in life and career and with a new girl.

I was with him for 7 years ( ldr). He thriving in life and career and is happy with new girl.

We both got into a new relationship post our breakup.

He was a textbook avoidant who always always wanted a way out and I was holding this together because I try and try no matter how bad it is.

My second ex. He too left me. He was abusive. Everything was a drama. His life too complicated and chaotic. I still chose him and well he left me. Ignoring me.

I was with both of them when they were at the struggling in life. And when now I'm going through it , I am alone.

I am at the most miserable state of my life. In terms of career, love, life. I feel like a failure.

I probably would never give love a chance because i have a belief that, love happens with 1 person and should be endgame. I don't believe in dating multiple people throughout life.

All I can say that I have nothing left no love , I can't pour into anyone's cup.

I will live my life throughout just loving both my previous partners in my heart. I will never go and be with someone else. Whatever love I had , is gone with them. I can't imagine my life with someone else. Haha so yeah old lady with cats .

I'm 23.