Idk

I have a friend who I talk to every single day, we eat lunch together, hang out on weekends, and do pretty much everything friends do. But sometimes, I really want her to leave me alone, I get upset at things she does (as small as collecting photos of me like many people do, trying to find my exam/test marks despite me not wanting her to, asking me questions way to personal even stuff about my other friends, yeah stuff like that), I know I shouldn’t be crying about these but they keep reoccurring and I don’t know what can I do. I wanted to cut her off but I feel like without her, I’d have no one at school.

At the same time, I’ve been talking less to friends outside of school and it feels so hard to reach out. We have like one conversation online each month each month but we used to be so close back then. I keep trying to think about how we had all those great memories before and they must be feeling the same way as me but I see so many posts on their social media accounts that clearly shows how they’re happy with their life now. And by ‘friends outside of school’, that’s 3 people only.

I know I should probably go find some new friends, but I don’t know how to. People in my school have established friend groups and it’s so hard to get along with people in my class. I don’t have any extracurricular activities anymore so it’s hard to find more people.

I feel so lonely and I don’t know what can I do, I don’t want to be alone

sorry for bad English