Idk

It’s not like I haven’t been crying already since yesterday. Me and my girlfriend is long distance, yesterday she told me she fell out of love with me. Initially I was upset with her because I came out to my father through a letter… she wanted to meet him one day… and so I told him about her and how happy she makes me… and how she takes care of me even long distance… 2 days ago, I received a message from him saying he’d love to meet her… I was scared to read the letter without her.. but I ended up reading it without her… spam after spam after spam… I gave up texting her, read the message. Screenshotted it, and sent it to her… and said she *** me off. It was early in the morning. She texted me that morning saying good morning. Then she went MIA for the rest of the day, but she was posting on ***, she read my messages…. She didn’t respond until yesterday.. I’ve been fighting for her love for years… considering we were going through something around that time. She was stuck in a relationship she wanted out of… but that’s a story for another day…. Once we were official… it lasted a couple of weeks… the attention lasted a couple of weeks….. I’m back in this loop… but she told me she lost feelings for me… while I was still loving her, she said she wanted me… but things changed… I asked her when we became official would she tell me if she started to fall out of love, we had a discussion a while ago if she wanted to break up… she said no.. I asked her if that’s what she wanted… she said no… idk… I just can’t let 6yrs go….