Idk how to feel secure when I know there’s no reason for me not to… help
I need help healing my inner child so I don’t ruin my relationship by overthinking and worrying and constantly seeking reassurance. I feel so miserable inside and it’s affecting my relationship with the only guy who has made me feel loved and wanted.
I felt the need to make him promise me last night that he would never have sex with me when he didn’t want to. Because we just went a few days without any which had never happened in the 4 months we’ve been together and I wanted to know why the change. He told me it was a weird promise to make. And now I feel gross and embarrassed and ashamed and childish.
I’m so embarrassed for being this way. And I’m so scared he will eventually see me as this and not who I truly am. This isn’t who I am. It’s not me or my personality but it’s so hard not to feel that way. I just don’t want to be like this anymore 😭
@adorkableimports
i would not put that much thought into this ... i think you were wondering why the dry spell as you said it has not happened before......... maybe you thought asking for the promise was a way to convey you were ok if he just was not up for it....
Did you do this instead of coming out and asking point blank "why" ? maybe thinking he would a understand you were curious about the days without and also ok if he was not in the mood...
IMO this happens when we try to hard to think of ways to bring up things that are better dealt with directly.
