I don't feel a connection anymore
I don't know how or what to sat to him...we've been in a happy relationship for a year and more but it's long distance and we barely get to see each other anymore. And recently I've just been so annoyed and just want to be alone all the time, I just long for alone time by myself and anytime he messages I get so upset and annoyed that I start to snap at him but I really don't mean to...I just don't feel a strong love for him as much anymore but he needs me, it's like I'm his entire life and he cants afford to lose me. He needs me in his life but I'm only pushing him away from mines and I hate myself for it. I want to break up but I don't want to hurt him so I just stay for his happiness but my constant anger and moodiness is destroying us both and I just don't know what to do anymore. He's the best a girl can ask for but I just want to be alone and it's selfish I know but I'm at a loss right now. I don't know what to do anymore
@Canary000
Your moodiness and wanting to be alone could be other things beyond your relationship.. are you depressed about things? depression can strike even when things seem OK.
You are fully aware in sharing it here that your feeling are not as strong as they once were and you are acting the part for his sake and that seems to grow your anger and snapping....
Even if he is as you say a good guy and the best a girl can ask for .... but in the end what does that matter if others think he is a catch if you are unhappy.
I do fight off my depression, my family expects best of me to be perfect and show no feelings. I've been suffering with it for years, even though I've gotten numb to the SH, I just don't know. My dad abandoned me days before my birthday this year, my mom is stressed and she got sick recently and collapsed and I panicked and called a family member for help and we took her to the doctor, she's ok now but she's upset that I told our family that she was sick and had to ask them for help. She hates when I ask others for help. And now school is reopening for me on the 2nd of September and I don't know how I'll function, I'm afraid of all the students, everyone hates me there. I have to write a big exam next year in June/July and I feel like I'm going to self destruct. I just want to pause and hide from everyone. I'm ignoring my boyfriend these past two days when he messages because I just don't want to talk to anyone
@Canary000
You are under a lot of things at once and wanting to shut it down and avoid it all is completely normal
you can only do the best you can do and stressing over not being good enough only makes each task harder. you will do fine ... you can do it....
