I don't know how to change
After years of having toxic relationships, I've finally met the boy of my dreams. The problem is me now. I don't know how to handle having such an healthy man
I create unnecessary fights, I get jealousy easily, I get irritated easily.. I'm such a mess. I tried everything to change (talking with a parent, a friend, watching podcasts) but I'm still such a *** who manages to break the only good thing that has ever come in her life
He's getting tired.
I don't know how he managed to stay by my side even after all the mess I created, this has been going on for 3 months
Yesterday he gave me a last chance, saying that he would leave me if something happens again
I don't blame him, I recognize my actions but I really can't get better and I don't know what the *** is wrong with me. I get better for 1-2 days, and then something happens again.
Please someone help me. Nobody has ever cared for me as he is. I want to have a future with him.
@pinkPond5035
It is good you recognize your triggers changing your responses is hard when they are ingrained. you probably had many unnecessary fights in past relationships.
New coping mechanisms take time to develop and the jealousy / anger issues are also entrenched.
Talk to him work on communication because this is not something you will change overnight. Once a partner knows why somethings trigger us... they can help in working towards healthier habits.