I don't know how to control myself. He hurt me
Soooo here's my situation. First thing first I struggle from severe anxiety.
I had a fight with my boyfriend yesterday and I can't control my emotions or stop overthinking about everything.
We've been together for almost 3 years now.
The problem is, I stayed with my boyfriend in his house for a whole week, and it was a little bit boring. I tried to suggest activities and tried to have a good day and everything. But he was always, especially in the morning, not in the mood to do anything and sometimes, he didn't even talk to me that much or kiss and hug me. I always asked myself if he feels bored with me but I tried not to overthink and just go on with the day.
Until one day, his two friends came to stay with him, and he completely changed, he woke up in the morning reaaally excited, singing, playing music and he never did that with me for the whole week.
When I adressed that yesterday he got really upset and tolf me to shut f up (which he never said that to me), and told.me that I always try to ruin the day when everything is okay and kept on screaming and said that he regrets everything.
And this hurt me a lot, he did apologized and said that what I was thinking is not true but we didn't communicate enough and now I don't know how to behave with him. I just want to control my emotions and my anxiety cause they are draining me.
I’m sorry this happened to you, men often struggle with emotions which sometimes turn to anger and that makes us feel unsafe and unsure how to respond or talk about anything. But that is no way for a relationship to be, let him know there are things you need to discuss with him and you want to work on building your communication and vulnerability with one another. You are the best judge of what you think is right for you even if you don’t think so.
work on yourself give yourself love and understanding and find ways to regulate your emotions, you are not alone many of us go through this.