I hate my ex and I've to see him everyday

I was in a relationship with a guy Who cheated on me.

He didn’t exactly cheat, but he lied to me, kept pictures of other girls, and constantly talked to other girls behind my back.

He always told me stuff like " ur very insecure " or “she’s just like a sister” or " i can't even have friends or what?"especially about his female best friend, but honestly, I could see there was more going on between them.

And the worst part?

That female best friend was also my best friend.

And my other best friend is his sister. So basically, I was surrounded and I felt like I couldn’t even express how much it was all hurting me.

I broke up with him due to these reasons and they expect me to still sit in the same group and smile like nothing happened.

Meanwhile, he and my other friend openly flirt in front of me and act all happy while I’m supposed to be "respectful" and “not cause drama.”

But what about me? I’m the one who was lied to, disrespected, made to feel insecure and stupid yet I’m the one left suffering?

I hate that I have to watch them laugh and be carefree while I just sit there, quiet and pretending it doesn’t kill me inside.

And the worst part is other than them, I don’t have any other friends.

They’ve been good to me in a lot of ways, and I don’t want to lose them.

But to keep them, I have to stay around him. And if I stay, I have to suffer silently.

I’ve been lonely for a long time now.

I’m tired of hurting like this. I don’t want to feel invisible anymore. I just need someone to talk to. Someone who understands. Because I’m seriously exhausted pretending I’m okay just to keep other people comfortable.