I know I’m worth more

Só me and my boyfriend got into an argument and he threw his phone at my head and then mushed my face a couple times with his hands and then punched me and then said that he sorry he mad that we lost our son January 27th when he was born he was 10lbs 2oz he stopped breathing and he blames me says that he can’t get over it. The argument started because I moved his hair from his face and looked at a pimple and he asked if it’s big I touched it and he said it hurts bad asf and punched me so I said you know what I’ll walk away then he called me stupid and said that I was to blame for all things and that I’m going through so much because of my dumb self mind you I’m homeless with him and I provided everything I made sure we had a job to do every day for food and clothes and more and I get this and blamed for our son. I’m just trying to wonder if Lise will always be this way because I gave up everything I had and more and this is my life. I did online school struggled bad and finished in March and walk the stage in July for my college degree and the more I think of it my head is so far gone I ask myself am I really worth it.