I loved him.

Hey guys, a few months ago I met this guy online and we really connected since then. I know people will judge and say it’s not real, but we really connected. A lot. He said he even liked me a lot even though he couldn’t see my face, which I’m really insecure about. We would talk every day for a couple of hours until he ghosted me for a long time, and I decided to remove him from my social media. When he joined me in a game and asked why, I told him and he said he was busy because of his new girlfriend. I never knew. I blew up and was really sad for a long time but I still had his ***. We didn’t talk at all for a few weeks. Sometimes he would reach out every now and then but not like we used to. I decided to shoot my shot and talk to him more, and that’s when he said he broke up with his gf, and we could talk more. I really connected with him so I agreed. It went so amazing we talked for so longer hours, watched movies together, and talked for hours and hours. He then decided to tell me that he liked me ever since before the last relationship, but he never said anything because I was already texting a bunch of other people, but I stopped for this guy. I said I liked him too, and we were both so so happy. I know it’s online and probably dumb, but I really did feel so connected. On dec 2 he asked me to be his girlfriend and I was so overjoyed!! I couldn’t believe he would ask that to me, and I was so so happy. Over time, we got closer and closer than ever, I stopped talking to my male friends for him. Over more time, he expressed his true feelings for me, that he loved me more than I could imagine and that I was his world and his face glows whenever he talks to me, and he really wants a future with me. Call me dumb for believing, but I believed him because he was such a gentleman and made me feel so so special and happy. He would write me these amazing paragraphs about how much he loved it and it was so awesome. Just about 2 days ago, I saw his picture in another girls post, and I asked why he got kinda mad and said it was his friend and that’s fine. However I only knew about two of his friends, a lesbian and a girl who was interested in him. He then told me that he snapped the girl who was interrelated in him, and I was mad that he did that, especially because I didn’t talk to other guys but he was because they’re his friends and he said he never asked for me to do that but i felt he doesn’t have to because I’m a loyal person and will do it anyway. That’s when he said his closest friends were female , and that he doesn’t know what he would do without them, and that was really a punch to the gut. When we met he said all his friends were fake. I asked if he hugs them, and he said only the lesbian and the girl interested. I was really mad at him, but he said they were just friends and that the girl who was interested (timber) figured her stuff out but never told me, while he also has a snap streak with her. I was very very mad, but he said I was being ridiculous. He kept asking to break up, and I guess my emotions were all over the place and I said yes, not knowing how much it would hurt him. Later, I said I wanna talk about it in a call, he blocked me from every single thing, saying I broke my promise of being together forever. Please don’t judge, but I really did love him and he was the best gentleman ever other than that, and he really did treat me well. I’m not handling the breakup well at all. I want reassurance, maybe a guy so I can get his POV but I really want him to reach out to me, or if there is a chance. My mind tells me he’s gone forever, though I pray he will change his mind. It also tells me that he might move on pretty fast. Sorry this is so long, but I really want comfort because I really did love him. Anything helps please.