I miss her

been in a 1 year relationship with her. Its my first time ever with someone and shes been amazing. Weve had some small arguments but we always resolved them and she helped me last year recover from a depresive episode, but i never told her i have a porn addiction and that ive been in sexchats talking to strangers.

After feeling depresive last week i told her the truth and she was hearbroken and betrayed. She didnt leave me but she wanted some time for herself and that if i wanna repair therelationship that i need to change.

I honeslty have had a porn addiction since i was young and all the stuff i watched and did since i was a kid only thought of it as regular porn. Now i feel horrible, shes an amazing woman and i love her. Shes been with me through tough times, but sometimes i have the urge even when i feel good to ***. I hate it honestly and i wanna stop, ive wasted hours of my life looking at porn and now i feel like i lost the one person i love and it feels all hopeless. I dont wanna hurt her. I wanna do something for her to change