Infidelity
Hey yall. This is nerve-wracking to post. In March, I was unfaithful to my husband. I created a relationship outside of my marriage. At first, it was platonic - mostly work related. But then things changed....and I made a terrible judgemental call. My husband was travelling , i was lonely and the attention i was seeking appeared.
I ended things in May, but then the guy contacted my husband. And for the past 3 weeks it has been a battle. He keeps questioning everything, testing my honesty and not believing me. I am trying to be honest. But my ommission of small details keeps coming back to bite me.
We aren't friendly with each other right now. And I am trying to understand his pain and anger. I refuse to throw in the towel, and he refuses to let me try to fix things for now
I've never felt so hopeless in my life.
I'm not looking for attention here - just felt like I needed to fall on my sword and own what I did.
@carimona
I hope that helps you a bit to fall on your sword. I hope you can find a way back to your marriage if that is what you want. I know you most likely feel bad about what happened and there will be so many questions. and more will come up ...... it will take time and it will always be there like a scar you forget about most times but every know and then you may see it and remember.
If you want to fix and get past this everything needs to be dealt with including why you may felt lonely and made a emotional connection that went farther. I know spouse wants answers but you need to have those clear in your head too.
