Is the friendship lost?

I have a guy friend who I have been hanging out with for the past year, we have great banter and I really like being with him. We have made out a couple of times but I’ve been the one to remind him that we’re just friends.

Well about 2 weeks ago I found out that he’s been having sex with other girls. I don’t know why but at the time I got so incredibly upset and jealous and I made it be known. In the midst of my jealousy I was confused why that was upsetting me that much if I myself had made it clear that we’re just friends. I did some reflecting and I actually realized that I have deeper feelings for him that of a friend.

I did send him an apology for getting jealous since it was not in my place to do so since we’re just friends. I also did tell him how I feel about that I like him as more than a friend although I don’t know what that means yet because this is something that I barely realized myself so I don’t know if my feelings are at the point where I would want a relationship with him. He left those messages on seen.

I’m so sad thinking that I ruined things between because of the whole mess I made by getting jealous when I shouldn’t have. And also thinking that he doesn’t want to be my friend anymore at the very least. I don’t know what to do to fix things between us