I was cheated on

I never thought this would be something that would happen to me, but again things can happen to anyone at any point in time. A point in time my boyfriend was emotionally checked out, depressed, like a void and barely clinging to life mentally. I was part of it because I stressed him out with what was happening on my life during that time and the things I told him were all negative. He told me he had something to tell me, that it eats away at him and he really truly loves me and he’s cutting of all his friends and etc if that means being better for me. He told me he cheated on me with my friend. He deeply regrets it told me what happened but doesn’t remember how it got to that point because of his mentality. They didn’t have sex. But she gave him head. I asked her more about it too. They both are very apologetic. But my bf said that she told him to not tell him and he said that wasn’t gonna happen and that he’s gonna tell me and he did tell me. He clearly regrets it deeply. Says that I’m literally the best thing in his life and what he would pray to God about as a kid.

I feel like a fool. I still love him and I believe his promise of change. I never wanted to end up like my mom or my sister who is married and was cheated on too. I feel so stupid. There is something telling me to stay tho.

There’s more to this but… yeah. I feel so heavy I don’t even want to eat but to make things worse I’m on my period so I have to eat something or I might faint at my job ( I work ODV in Disney). It’ll keep my distracted at least. I hope.

This ain’t everything but it’s a lot of it.