I wish

I wish people could feel what was going on in my head, my heart

We used to message all the time, we used to talk and smile all the time. I keep drawing further and further away when that isn't at all what I want.

I miss what we had, I miss making you happy, making you smile, helping you feel comfortable, being there for you.

I miss messaging.

I am sorry.

I miss making you smile, making you laugh, holding you.

God I am so sorry.

I miss us.

I don't understand what is wrong with me.

Everything feels so empty. So wrong. Everything is wrong. I am just going to ruin your life

I am so sorry.

God I am so sorry.