Living with pain of guilt and fear every day

I met a guy in August 2024 he’s a police officer we chatted on WhatsApp about a month sometime we would tease each other be angry to each other they fix so within that month he would talk about sex which I was comfortable with and everytime he told me he’s *** I kinda responded bad at the same time I felt it was early to be talking about that so during a month a 2 weeks on communication I wanted to come where I stayed but I kept on refusing because I was intimidated by him and scared that my family would have a problem with me dating so he said I should come to his room I said I will but in a public space I felt down grade coz I believed a first date should be in a public spaces but he would get angry and said I’m putting his life at risk cos he has lots of enemies but I didn’t believe that coz on one of his pictures he was in a club and there are lot of people there so he felt like I’m too playful and said he doesn’t have time for games we never spoke, he started posting things that I’m cheating toxic all over,made treats that we should never meet now I live in fear if I was wrong for not telling him where I stay and being confused about everything ,I never responded to all things he posted that I’m not inspired just because before that I had expres bad negative thoughts in me which I feel bad coz I was depressed and confused so he used that against me, I’m intimidated by his actions how will he react if I happen to meet his. And if I was wrong telling him I’m a virgin and not ready and for changing my mind of not going there after his actions