Move or Stay

I don’t know what to do. My boyfriend and I have been long distance for a few years and we’ve talked about moving in together. It sounds great, but I just landed the best job I've ever had and it feels overwhelming to immediately quit, pack everything up, and move across the country.

I do love him. He’s a great person and treats me really well. I just don’t know how I feel anymore, and I’m starting to worry that I’ve fallen out of love. I don't know if this is because of stress or why I'm starting to feel like this.

He’s been my only serious relationship because I don’t really date or put myself out there. When I picture a future with him, it’s okay. Like an average cookie cutter life. We'd live in a nice house and have nice jobs which is a huge deal because I've never had stability before. People kill for that kind of life. But part of me worries I’d regret never giving myself the chance to explore, to meet other people, or build something on my own closer to home. I’m also scared I’d regret not choosing him too.

At the same time, there’s no guarantee I’d find someone else. I don’t really expect to honestly because the fact that even one person chose me feels like a miracle.

I don't know what I'm doing. I'm freaking out and can't think straight and I'm second guessing everything.